Future?

Was currently 3:15 in the sunday morning and im still awake. Shitloads of revisions to go on!
Nah, i don't really read but i do put a lotsa effort on geography history and business study which are my favorite subjects. I spend most of my time revising these! And i really do appreciate one of my classmate who is willing to lend me all his notes, geography notes which i suck on it.

Here comes the tough week, bless me bless me!

Hmm, did not blog for so long time. Guess none of you will like to read or visit a blog written by a girl who keeps mumbling and ask shits, am i correct? What i sincerely hope for is a life like this can make a full-stop and never come back. Its torturing or well maybe i overdescribed this. Ain't fun at all!
Another thing that seems to bother me a lot, The University. Or in another way, i don't feel like i want to further my studies anymore. Mom's action shocked me when i first told her my thinking. Usually,she must be the first to make sure I AM GOING TO A UNIVERSITY. She let me decide my own.. is she giving me up? Like, after so many incidents happened at once, people changed. So do things? Hopes? Love? Concerns? I don't know. I will take this serious =/
As for now, I really think of just taking any courses which i have my interest on it beside doing a little part time job like in a florist,in a pet shop, in a bakery or even in a resort. This will be a simple life that i always wanted! Can i really survive without any certificates? Or i shall just put away all those silly and crazy thoughts, get my ass into a university, be an ordinary one like everyone does ?
Mom and dad show me their supports and it makes me even guilty. Am i going to let them down again? ='( ..

I want my life to be interesting and I must can work on it in my own way. Perhaps ..

The Bean's Eighteen!

A post specially for The Bean. Happy happy birthday! Sorry for keep delaying uncle bean!

We actually celebrated his bday last tuesday which we(me&parrot) made him a small small blast. Only three of us. He doesn't like to be in a crowd. I guess so?

Went Straits Quay first to collect his birthday cake since BR ice-cream cake was sold out. Took so much time there! He wants ALMOST everything...
After making three options then he get a satisfied one, silly beanHe took Cappuccino Cheese Cake as his option and here we go,up to batu ferringghi for dinner.
Wondered why was the beach so silent that night. Only us and a couple. Feeling so good and relaxing. Me so envy that girl because her boyfriend treat her so good. Somemore i feed you you feed me kiss kiss kiss.So soft and tender!

So,here's the place.

He is too shy to look at my sight haha! So every pictures came from a far far view.
Or you want to avoid those pimpies? Uhm just know you well..
God knows. The dinner was err... A disappointment. The man who served us know nothing about the menu. Bad service! I personally think that its feeling great to get some beverages and some chit-chat session there but not DINNER. Do you get me? The food was like 'ca-pa-lang' all served in one piece yet tasteless. NOOOOOO GOOD.

Make a wish. He says,I want joey to be my girlfriend!

Then a creepy one,mysterious Bean .__.

We love this!

Can't see me right? Was too messy. Stay tuned for the next post if you miss me alright =P
Once again,happy birthday to the silly-est bean in class.
Stay handsome and pimples go away all the time okayyyy!
May our friendship last forever.

thanks parrot!

what happened to my happy ever after story?

Hello readers!

Its.....M A Y! Good, time flies! Be faster and faster tho im not ready for the uec yet. Ughh!
Im actually here to talk a little about what had happened like few days ago.
So,this..was a ridiculous week for me! Ups and Downs... its some family issues*
You can ask me in private if you want and i can tell if i feel like telling you! =P

I made mistakes and somebody just treat me SO RUDE. I don't think i deserve that much?!!
And this is not the main point yet. Some other people,which are not related keep on saying this and that,poking this and that. I sincerely admired or respect you before but what come out from your mouth today make me so shocked. I feel terrible for you
Without a doubt, i am the bullshit meanwhile you are the... angel? Coughs hard.
Respecting the elders in the family is a must. And i always phailed to do so. Im rude i know Im disrespectful i know but who the hell you think you are? You don't even like your own mom aren't you? I don't mind anymore if you want to spread these out.. My mistake for trusting you too much.
YOU must be tired because you've been running through my head all day ~

Life is tough. Or its never been easy before? I can overcome this.
Im losing a thing but i can gain another thing. God is fair to everybody i trust him =)
As for that someone,the comments and the so-called-CONCERNS. Its too fake to think of it now..
Before this,I treat you as a friend of mine which i can talk to whatever and anytime. Im so happy to share my gossips with you and so on...why don't you just leave me alone.
The more i recall the past, the worse i can feel. All the hard feelings i have...
I phailed my frienship. I phailed my studies. I phailed myself.

I will never be good enough for everybody. But this is for sure,i can be the best for someone who really appreciates me. Thanks for reading! =)