i'm SMAD ！

had some quarrels again with mom, its been the 2nd time this week! and i just don't know why..
what i need sometimes is just some comforts. nothing else and why can't she do so?
i love my mom so much, yes i do but i think she is paying more attentions on my sisters. urrrgghhh, i am not trying to be sensitive or what. from the way she express her words, face expression or even body language.. i can feel it. i cried for this over and over again. i want she to noticed then gimme a hug or a kiss or even a soft glance at me.. neither of them she did it.

i am not that kind of good daughter who scores high marks and have a good attitude in school or at home. i am wild sometimes, i have my own life and i knew that she is not agreeing with my current lifestyle anymore but she just keep quiet. but heyy sorry mom i just can't be like erjie who is so obedient.. ! she just keep quiet without any voices or expression & sometimes no one could notice her. TOO CREEPY! or i am too kepo for nagging this & that perhaps and you can't stand me anymore? I JUST DON'T KNOW

妈妈你为什么那么偏袒妹妹··················
你难道不知道我也会吃醋也会不开心 也会发脾气然后不知所措吗！
我不是好孩子


所以妈妈不爱我了？
，不是那么爱我了？

My Crap Blog.

my naked face w/o applied any-thing

almost forgotten my bloggie you know! this is bad..
anyway, how is everyone doing out there? now should be my time to revision as i am having a test tomorrow morning at 9am sharp. #FML im still surfing the net/blogging!
when it came up to studies, im really being super duper lazy.. i can't pay attention i can't memorize well. everything will only be set up at the eleventh hour.. and then i will be blaming myself for not study so frequently. hate this much! how am i gonna survive when im in a university?

well talk about universities,many of my friends aka seniors had left to different countries to further their studies. and this is what keep me thinking these couple days. i am a girl who is so感性(full of emotions) and i don't know why i am feeling so down.. its like? none of my business and not my best friend or bf who are leaving but the mood just brings me down ttm. my sisters claimed that saya sudah naik gila. maybe? not even my friend was unhappy when her brother,real brother is about to leave but i started to cry like a nobody when everyone just stayed so calm. i didn't fall in love with her brother or any-thing..im just sad =/
sounds hilarious right? yes my mom says so.. i need hug hug and kiss kiss*

one more thing. why i can never be serious? why am i so playful?
in not more than 60 days im gonna sit for my UEC and this is 'goddamnit what a big deal' for me.
but never prepare! HAHAHHAHA thats so me. as i said, its my crap blog so i can crap as much as i like...! once again, study hard everyone! bear for this 2 months and yes we are set free, like what my mom used to tell me : YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE after this. yes right after this.

PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR. TEEHEEE........

I AM SO SORRY

Its a bad afternoon as i can't fall asleep. My power nap just gone so then i decide to blog a little.
I am wondering a question. I REALLY DO.
How to maintain a good/friendly/kind relationship between people and people. I think i know this question and i supposed can handle it well but..its seems to be.. Haih! People likes rumors more then the truth huh? As rumors sounds more interesting..
I am a straight-forward girl and i speak whatever that is playing in my brain like what my mom usually says:Brainless. Am i?
For some random people they'll knock their head as a 'yes'. When it turns in to my bestie..they know me well! :D Brainless yet telling the truth ma. Ok,not feels like continue to this topic..

and this is what actually keeps me bothered.!
I treat you as one of my friends. I did not betrayed you or do something bad behind. Backstabbing is bad,mommy told me before ;-D Theres' something wrong about your own personality not me. Can't trust me? Then stop telling or seeking any advice from me. You keep lying to me..and i notice it ok ? You told me how bad another girl was and how kind,how good you treat her..but what i get from another side is. This ain't the truth..based on what you've told me.
Alright. Make things clear then will be everything fine,hmm.. Im tired and there are a lots of other stuff keep bothering me. I think i will forget all this bullshits. Sorry for the being the buzibodiest girl ever which caused you so much troubles! X.X

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How old are you? I am eighteen!

Hey guys! Is everyone doing good out there? In a wednesday evening? Im lazying at home, rolling at the bed.. aih, lifes good!
So. To update you, i had celebrated my 18th birthday last Wednesday which is.. today? One week ago! Hehe, definitely a blast for me. Thanks for coming boys and girls. We are having a great moment don't we? *Giggles* A little disappointment as i did not received any wishes from you.. Haih.. told myself to forget!!!
Some little pictures of the day.. Everyone is so paying attention at me because of my stunning red dress ♥

Bla bla bla. And do any of you realise.. or its just ME? that there are many among my friends and families who had their birthday in this month, JUNE. Like.. too packed? In my family i had my eighteenth, the twin's birthday partay,my mom's,my bestie Lai yeang's eighteen then my sister. Coming up next month July will be my dad's. Poor little thing which gonna bleed so badly. Urgh... Happy Birthday to me!

The Twin Sister， Agnes and Anything's 18th Birthday..
Thanks to Mr.Boyfie , hahaaa!


So that's pretty all what im gonna share today. Hope you like it?
Thanks for reading anyway.. a flying kiss for you! ♥

Highlights.

*feeling so great after catching up with u guys again, my primary besties!

Its a beatiful Saturday! Everything just went on smoothly.. Lalala♥

Hmm,feels like blogging now. Supposed to blog more often as it is school break right now but im to lazy to update. Keep updating. I mean like,reporting your daily routines? Mom says somebody's gonna kidnap me one day *LOL* Well,what have you guys done for ur holidays? My friends? :) Urgh,i try my best to catch up my studies as i make revision AT LEAST a few hours a day and of course its more than 1 hour! Someone is going to questioned me so i mentioned first =D Its some thing like its a very limited edition. I only put much effort on the geography,history and business studies. I want distinction for these subjects! Bless me bless me.. Besides, JUNE is my birthday month! Looking so forward of what you guys getting me =D Hmm.. Did spent a lot on buying presents as many birthday boys and girls this month. Having any celebration on 8th June? Argh. Totally no idea. I used to celebrate for others but totally not myself, Sounds funny. I err.. i want a birthday wish from you can i?

It was May27. Which is Jia Rou's 18 ..

cried so hard after listening to my 'lies'

BoyF is here!

Delicious, Straits Quay

Yixin with the birthday girl :)

Berlin. Straits Quay

Met a teacher after that!

What a beautiful hangover. My pleasure to have you. Love you! ♥

Future?

Was currently 3:15 in the sunday morning and im still awake. Shitloads of revisions to go on!
Nah, i don't really read but i do put a lotsa effort on geography history and business study which are my favorite subjects. I spend most of my time revising these! And i really do appreciate one of my classmate who is willing to lend me all his notes, geography notes which i suck on it.

Here comes the tough week, bless me bless me!

Hmm, did not blog for so long time. Guess none of you will like to read or visit a blog written by a girl who keeps mumbling and ask shits, am i correct? What i sincerely hope for is a life like this can make a full-stop and never come back. Its torturing or well maybe i overdescribed this. Ain't fun at all!
Another thing that seems to bother me a lot, The University. Or in another way, i don't feel like i want to further my studies anymore. Mom's action shocked me when i first told her my thinking. Usually,she must be the first to make sure I AM GOING TO A UNIVERSITY. She let me decide my own.. is she giving me up? Like, after so many incidents happened at once, people changed. So do things? Hopes? Love? Concerns? I don't know. I will take this serious =/
As for now, I really think of just taking any courses which i have my interest on it beside doing a little part time job like in a florist,in a pet shop, in a bakery or even in a resort. This will be a simple life that i always wanted! Can i really survive without any certificates? Or i shall just put away all those silly and crazy thoughts, get my ass into a university, be an ordinary one like everyone does ?
Mom and dad show me their supports and it makes me even guilty. Am i going to let them down again? ='( ..

I want my life to be interesting and I must can work on it in my own way. Perhaps ..

The Bean's Eighteen!

A post specially for The Bean. Happy happy birthday! Sorry for keep delaying uncle bean!

We actually celebrated his bday last tuesday which we(me&parrot) made him a small small blast. Only three of us. He doesn't like to be in a crowd. I guess so?

Went Straits Quay first to collect his birthday cake since BR ice-cream cake was sold out. Took so much time there! He wants ALMOST everything...
After making three options then he get a satisfied one, silly beanHe took Cappuccino Cheese Cake as his option and here we go,up to batu ferringghi for dinner.
Wondered why was the beach so silent that night. Only us and a couple. Feeling so good and relaxing. Me so envy that girl because her boyfriend treat her so good. Somemore i feed you you feed me kiss kiss kiss.So soft and tender!

So,here's the place.

He is too shy to look at my sight haha! So every pictures came from a far far view.
Or you want to avoid those pimpies? Uhm just know you well..
God knows. The dinner was err... A disappointment. The man who served us know nothing about the menu. Bad service! I personally think that its feeling great to get some beverages and some chit-chat session there but not DINNER. Do you get me? The food was like 'ca-pa-lang' all served in one piece yet tasteless. NOOOOOO GOOD.

Make a wish. He says,I want joey to be my girlfriend!

Then a creepy one,mysterious Bean .__.

We love this!

Can't see me right? Was too messy. Stay tuned for the next post if you miss me alright =P
Once again,happy birthday to the silly-est bean in class.
Stay handsome and pimples go away all the time okayyyy!
May our friendship last forever.

thanks parrot!

what happened to my happy ever after story?

Hello readers!

Its.....M A Y! Good, time flies! Be faster and faster tho im not ready for the uec yet. Ughh!
Im actually here to talk a little about what had happened like few days ago.
So,this..was a ridiculous week for me! Ups and Downs... its some family issues*
You can ask me in private if you want and i can tell if i feel like telling you! =P

I made mistakes and somebody just treat me SO RUDE. I don't think i deserve that much?!!
And this is not the main point yet. Some other people,which are not related keep on saying this and that,poking this and that. I sincerely admired or respect you before but what come out from your mouth today make me so shocked. I feel terrible for you
Without a doubt, i am the bullshit meanwhile you are the... angel? Coughs hard.
Respecting the elders in the family is a must. And i always phailed to do so. Im rude i know Im disrespectful i know but who the hell you think you are? You don't even like your own mom aren't you? I don't mind anymore if you want to spread these out.. My mistake for trusting you too much.
YOU must be tired because you've been running through my head all day ~

Life is tough. Or its never been easy before? I can overcome this.
Im losing a thing but i can gain another thing. God is fair to everybody i trust him =)
As for that someone,the comments and the so-called-CONCERNS. Its too fake to think of it now..
Before this,I treat you as a friend of mine which i can talk to whatever and anytime. Im so happy to share my gossips with you and so on...why don't you just leave me alone.
The more i recall the past, the worse i can feel. All the hard feelings i have...
I phailed my frienship. I phailed my studies. I phailed myself.

I will never be good enough for everybody. But this is for sure,i can be the best for someone who really appreciates me. Thanks for reading! =)

Lover. Friends.

Hello everyone! My apologies for the late updates. So do any of you know...
HOW AM I DOING RECENTLY?
what a weird question ? just try to be humorous a little bit..kikix

F I N A L L Y,
The class song competition was well done yesterday. Every of us had joy. That should be a memorable night for all the seniors. Its not anything about winner or loser but its about friendship. Lose the competition but never lose a friendship. This could be a slogan of the annual class song event for my school i guess. Can see this happens like every year. This even happens on me this year.. My class wasn't the champion at last but the other class, F5B. Their song title was 'Friends 4ever' if i was not mistaken. I somehow love their lyrics,simple yet touching. Their lyrics is mentioning on how will it be after all of us had graduate. Will friendship still there? I love it,yes. Plus,they performed it in a relaxing way unlike others.. too complicated ain't a good choice. We seniors will not have chance to perform again so good luck to all the juniors.

Talk something back about myself.I owe my teacher an apology.. guess so? no? yes?
Im confused. I don't like to see her not-smiling face when she has to handle my problem.I messed up with some other classmates.Yea.Some quarrels and arguments. Well and,im tough.
Always think of myself is a super hero or something. Like can save the whole world with only my strength? OH HEY, YOU'RE TOO TINY FOR THIS!
Yes.I realized. Like finally.I have too much confidence of myself.I like last minute job.I like to finish all the things MYSELF.I don't need help.What else?
I AM SORRY. Didn't mean to show-off but just trying to help as much as i could..
But ended up was i took too much job away and i hardly could finish it. Finishing all those jobs alone is like impossible. And thank you teacher for giving me advise and so much concerns. Thanks for bearing me so much. I will try to be friendly and polite again =)
Some girls in my class even show me a wide smiling face instead of a oh-yuck-pls-go-away-look since im not that friendly and kind to them. I am bad =(
Thanks for still loving me and treat me so kind. Heeeheeeeheee just too lucky i am!

LOVER ?
Don't be curious as i mentioned this word. It has been so so long,yes,so long i mean i never touched this topic. I want to be in love again. But, it seems so hard..
As some of my close friends know, i met a cutebody. Geeeeeee, it was so happening since last month plus. Unfortunately, yes i say unfortunately we have so much different life style. He likes sport and im not.This is a big problem for me. Its impossible for me to spend all my time to go for all the outdoor activities isn't it? I hate sweating babe ='(
Nobody is blaming or pushing me hard. Its me me me myself. Can be so emo when he shows me a bitter-gourd face. So no cute! And yes. I would rather spent most of my time hanging with my friends. Not dare to step in to a relationship yet. I hate to reject him just like i hate to reject my friends. They are both my everything. So helpless yet tiring. I didn't forget the lessons..friends are too important. Ahhh! Totally out of idea. How am i going to set this up?

p/s the blogger.com is still having problem with me! sorry for no picture displayed ='(

the-first-round.

Only one picture. Better not pose correct?
So none of it is here. I actually postponed this entry for about 2 days and maybe more. Since monday? So i keep adding things inside,like. My anger! Since this is my blog so i can say whatever i like isn't it? Yes you can.

Was busy like a bug nowadays..
Monday was our school's annual class song competition first round before each class could make it into final. And guess what! Yeah my class did it. We made it into the FINALE!
So we are performing once again during the 16th of april.So excited man!
Here's some pictures of the day. Behind the scene...
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Please try again later. Thank you.

supposed to have more then 10 pictures i want to share with all of you,i really wanted to!
Well. Im so pissed off right now. Im doing the same actions and clicking on the same buttons for the previous days. Like 2 days! Not only wasting my time and efforts yet pictures upload still p-h-a-i-l-e-d. All locked up by idk what icon and yes im half idiot when need to deal with pc thing. So no pictures but idk why still managed to upload one.
Will think of another way.. this is so.. -.-

Sigh. Just forget about it. This time will be a very boring post,hope you won't mind =(
Btw,im still proud and happy to the max for my class. You will not know how exactly my feelings are!
A liltle bit touched deep in my heart..its like, Wahh!Everybody works so hard and i see team works.
This is uneasy. Really. For some girls in my class i knew they even cried for the small small victory..
See how much all these mean to them? Me as well laa.
What really amazed me that day was the boy's performance. They were like turn into a new person,so different compared to what they'd shown us before! OH HOW COME?
This is awesome. And we actually took the last few days to rehersal for the whole performance. I mean a proper one. A last minute job and so what? Yes we can still make it in time though there still lotsa imperfections..
2 weeks time for us now onwards. To turn all the imperfect part to the most 'sai lei' part!
But you know.. i have to stay back everyday after school for practice,dancing,discussion and so on. This is tiring and i actually hate to do so. Ok. For the champion..will do my best

Little gossip here. You'd know i love gossips!
Some guy(ok i named him a guy) is acting such ego.
Thinking that who you are? HUH? such an extreme egoism people no wonder nobody likes you
and you think this is call fun? Maybe for you lol.
I will pray hard so that _______________!
Yes i think we can b you if we work MOREEEEE HARDER.

He is an absolute ego in all things. Beside ego,i can't think of any other better description.
Well,this is only my personal opinion..
the best is you'd know who i am taking about! xD
You might be the best but that doesn't mean we others are kanasai okay !


Congratulations to other classes too which also make into the final!

March Twenty-Two.

DO YOU LIKE IT? Say yes.

A short update here since im bored.

Was waiting for someone.. hemm phone calls.
what take so long for you to call back!


Well. Here are something for the dear SOMEBODY :
I can be kind,friendly and nice to everyone.Especially my classmates. I love all of you and what i want in back will be only a word peace.Don't against each other can? Somebody,a very huge somebody is getting more and more irritated.Backstabbers are cheap. Don't make me a fool. Im not smart but ain't idiot. Everything has its own limits there.
Beware. I might bite you back!

This will be a busy week for me and my class since the annual class song competition is around the corner. Looking so so forward! Hopes that we can get into the final! finger crossed*
Have to admit that,yea i absent a lot during the rehersal. Sorry class..
But hey i can perform really well in what im in charge of.
Such like t-shirts design =D
Bet you'll like it.

So..any of you are coming for the final which held at the 16th of april 2011?
Eeeeee too early for me to ask correct. Sorry was too excited to think about it. My baby girls are confirmed attend. So happy to have their support tho we are not the best..yet.
Don't you ever ignore my 'yet' word. *evil signs*
Do come and support us!




March has come to an end. Time flies!
See you soon APRIL ♥

Relationships.

Sometimes..

I wish i was a little girl again because bruised knees heals faster than a broken heart.
Life has not been easy before but at least not a TOUGH one isn't it?
I learn as i grow. But there are too much to learn outside! Only wounds and cuts everywhere i had at last.
My heart was in pieces again because of you.. Sorry for not being the type you want :'(
Why. Just tell me why. Charming prince is always a disaster?
Or i don't deserve one? So down!
You bang into me and,and.. oh this is getting so wrong again
Im not a free flow drink. Anyone or anybody tell me what can i do.. Neither for you nor me? Being in a situation like this is killing me. Obviously.

Or i should just let it go once again..

DO YOU MISS ME!

Ohai people! My last signed-in was Feb2.
So its been a long while... Oops.
I missed out a lot,do i?
Update me please and thank you.

Life's been tiring lately. Like...i had gone through a lot.
I err..problems with school la issssh.

My name was on the school notice board today. Discovered yourself -.-*
Heyheyhey i got so many to tell last nite when i decided to blog but now holy shit my mind stay empty again. Or i switched the wrong mode?Wth zzz

All the joys have to come to an end. So here comes the exams,the most irritating part.No more skipping classes and outings so more often.Be homebaby and do more revisions!I did started,a lil bit ha-ha-ha. I want a good and bright future,so fight more harder a lil bit. And im doing quite well for the past few days! Be proud muahaha.

Well well well...
and. Will be less updates then usually i do. Once a week maybe? Hmm...
Enough for me to write about my nothingelselife life.
Its because i will need to attend tuition classes. From march onwards.
Mom is not gonna hire a private home teacher for me anymore. Too bad.

My last attending to a tuition class was when i was 15. Has been such a long period time... :[
Hope you won't miss me that much! =)

Finally check this out.

Get set#

J-j-j-j-jump....#

Reach the sky!#

Always have a great awesome moments with my girls,love you guys so so muchieee.
Stay tunned for the coming march holidays!
With love,goodnight.

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Quite upset today.

Why can't i grow taller? I lost my chances..

not going to talk much about this.

And im keeping my hair long again now. Teeheee!bTill the shoulder :)

Not much hairstyles that i can play with,in a length like this i mean.

But a short hair is really really easy to take care of and to set,still satisfied tho..

I AM STEPPING ON MY OWN FOOT wtf.