i'm SMAD ！

had some quarrels again with mom, its been the 2nd time this week! and i just don't know why..
what i need sometimes is just some comforts. nothing else and why can't she do so?
i love my mom so much, yes i do but i think she is paying more attentions on my sisters. urrrgghhh, i am not trying to be sensitive or what. from the way she express her words, face expression or even body language.. i can feel it. i cried for this over and over again. i want she to noticed then gimme a hug or a kiss or even a soft glance at me.. neither of them she did it.

i am not that kind of good daughter who scores high marks and have a good attitude in school or at home. i am wild sometimes, i have my own life and i knew that she is not agreeing with my current lifestyle anymore but she just keep quiet. but heyy sorry mom i just can't be like erjie who is so obedient.. ! she just keep quiet without any voices or expression & sometimes no one could notice her. TOO CREEPY! or i am too kepo for nagging this & that perhaps and you can't stand me anymore? I JUST DON'T KNOW

妈妈你为什么那么偏袒妹妹··················
你难道不知道我也会吃醋也会不开心 也会发脾气然后不知所措吗！
我不是好孩子


所以妈妈不爱我了？
，不是那么爱我了？

My Crap Blog.

my naked face w/o applied any-thing

almost forgotten my bloggie you know! this is bad..
anyway, how is everyone doing out there? now should be my time to revision as i am having a test tomorrow morning at 9am sharp. #FML im still surfing the net/blogging!
when it came up to studies, im really being super duper lazy.. i can't pay attention i can't memorize well. everything will only be set up at the eleventh hour.. and then i will be blaming myself for not study so frequently. hate this much! how am i gonna survive when im in a university?

well talk about universities,many of my friends aka seniors had left to different countries to further their studies. and this is what keep me thinking these couple days. i am a girl who is so感性(full of emotions) and i don't know why i am feeling so down.. its like? none of my business and not my best friend or bf who are leaving but the mood just brings me down ttm. my sisters claimed that saya sudah naik gila. maybe? not even my friend was unhappy when her brother,real brother is about to leave but i started to cry like a nobody when everyone just stayed so calm. i didn't fall in love with her brother or any-thing..im just sad =/
sounds hilarious right? yes my mom says so.. i need hug hug and kiss kiss*

one more thing. why i can never be serious? why am i so playful?
in not more than 60 days im gonna sit for my UEC and this is 'goddamnit what a big deal' for me.
but never prepare! HAHAHHAHA thats so me. as i said, its my crap blog so i can crap as much as i like...! once again, study hard everyone! bear for this 2 months and yes we are set free, like what my mom used to tell me : YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE after this. yes right after this.

PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR. TEEHEEE........

I AM SO SORRY

Its a bad afternoon as i can't fall asleep. My power nap just gone so then i decide to blog a little.
I am wondering a question. I REALLY DO.
How to maintain a good/friendly/kind relationship between people and people. I think i know this question and i supposed can handle it well but..its seems to be.. Haih! People likes rumors more then the truth huh? As rumors sounds more interesting..
I am a straight-forward girl and i speak whatever that is playing in my brain like what my mom usually says:Brainless. Am i?
For some random people they'll knock their head as a 'yes'. When it turns in to my bestie..they know me well! :D Brainless yet telling the truth ma. Ok,not feels like continue to this topic..

and this is what actually keeps me bothered.!
I treat you as one of my friends. I did not betrayed you or do something bad behind. Backstabbing is bad,mommy told me before ;-D Theres' something wrong about your own personality not me. Can't trust me? Then stop telling or seeking any advice from me. You keep lying to me..and i notice it ok ? You told me how bad another girl was and how kind,how good you treat her..but what i get from another side is. This ain't the truth..based on what you've told me.
Alright. Make things clear then will be everything fine,hmm.. Im tired and there are a lots of other stuff keep bothering me. I think i will forget all this bullshits. Sorry for the being the buzibodiest girl ever which caused you so much troubles! X.X

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How old are you? I am eighteen!

Hey guys! Is everyone doing good out there? In a wednesday evening? Im lazying at home, rolling at the bed.. aih, lifes good!
So. To update you, i had celebrated my 18th birthday last Wednesday which is.. today? One week ago! Hehe, definitely a blast for me. Thanks for coming boys and girls. We are having a great moment don't we? *Giggles* A little disappointment as i did not received any wishes from you.. Haih.. told myself to forget!!!
Some little pictures of the day.. Everyone is so paying attention at me because of my stunning red dress ♥

Bla bla bla. And do any of you realise.. or its just ME? that there are many among my friends and families who had their birthday in this month, JUNE. Like.. too packed? In my family i had my eighteenth, the twin's birthday partay,my mom's,my bestie Lai yeang's eighteen then my sister. Coming up next month July will be my dad's. Poor little thing which gonna bleed so badly. Urgh... Happy Birthday to me!

The Twin Sister， Agnes and Anything's 18th Birthday..
Thanks to Mr.Boyfie , hahaaa!


So that's pretty all what im gonna share today. Hope you like it?
Thanks for reading anyway.. a flying kiss for you! ♥

Highlights.

*feeling so great after catching up with u guys again, my primary besties!

Its a beatiful Saturday! Everything just went on smoothly.. Lalala♥

Hmm,feels like blogging now. Supposed to blog more often as it is school break right now but im to lazy to update. Keep updating. I mean like,reporting your daily routines? Mom says somebody's gonna kidnap me one day *LOL* Well,what have you guys done for ur holidays? My friends? :) Urgh,i try my best to catch up my studies as i make revision AT LEAST a few hours a day and of course its more than 1 hour! Someone is going to questioned me so i mentioned first =D Its some thing like its a very limited edition. I only put much effort on the geography,history and business studies. I want distinction for these subjects! Bless me bless me.. Besides, JUNE is my birthday month! Looking so forward of what you guys getting me =D Hmm.. Did spent a lot on buying presents as many birthday boys and girls this month. Having any celebration on 8th June? Argh. Totally no idea. I used to celebrate for others but totally not myself, Sounds funny. I err.. i want a birthday wish from you can i?

It was May27. Which is Jia Rou's 18 ..

cried so hard after listening to my 'lies'

BoyF is here!

Delicious, Straits Quay

Yixin with the birthday girl :)

Berlin. Straits Quay

Met a teacher after that!

What a beautiful hangover. My pleasure to have you. Love you! ♥

Future?

Was currently 3:15 in the sunday morning and im still awake. Shitloads of revisions to go on!
Nah, i don't really read but i do put a lotsa effort on geography history and business study which are my favorite subjects. I spend most of my time revising these! And i really do appreciate one of my classmate who is willing to lend me all his notes, geography notes which i suck on it.

Here comes the tough week, bless me bless me!

Hmm, did not blog for so long time. Guess none of you will like to read or visit a blog written by a girl who keeps mumbling and ask shits, am i correct? What i sincerely hope for is a life like this can make a full-stop and never come back. Its torturing or well maybe i overdescribed this. Ain't fun at all!
Another thing that seems to bother me a lot, The University. Or in another way, i don't feel like i want to further my studies anymore. Mom's action shocked me when i first told her my thinking. Usually,she must be the first to make sure I AM GOING TO A UNIVERSITY. She let me decide my own.. is she giving me up? Like, after so many incidents happened at once, people changed. So do things? Hopes? Love? Concerns? I don't know. I will take this serious =/
As for now, I really think of just taking any courses which i have my interest on it beside doing a little part time job like in a florist,in a pet shop, in a bakery or even in a resort. This will be a simple life that i always wanted! Can i really survive without any certificates? Or i shall just put away all those silly and crazy thoughts, get my ass into a university, be an ordinary one like everyone does ?
Mom and dad show me their supports and it makes me even guilty. Am i going to let them down again? ='( ..

I want my life to be interesting and I must can work on it in my own way. Perhaps ..

The Bean's Eighteen!

A post specially for The Bean. Happy happy birthday! Sorry for keep delaying uncle bean!

We actually celebrated his bday last tuesday which we(me&parrot) made him a small small blast. Only three of us. He doesn't like to be in a crowd. I guess so?

Went Straits Quay first to collect his birthday cake since BR ice-cream cake was sold out. Took so much time there! He wants ALMOST everything...
After making three options then he get a satisfied one, silly beanHe took Cappuccino Cheese Cake as his option and here we go,up to batu ferringghi for dinner.
Wondered why was the beach so silent that night. Only us and a couple. Feeling so good and relaxing. Me so envy that girl because her boyfriend treat her so good. Somemore i feed you you feed me kiss kiss kiss.So soft and tender!

So,here's the place.

He is too shy to look at my sight haha! So every pictures came from a far far view.
Or you want to avoid those pimpies? Uhm just know you well..
God knows. The dinner was err... A disappointment. The man who served us know nothing about the menu. Bad service! I personally think that its feeling great to get some beverages and some chit-chat session there but not DINNER. Do you get me? The food was like 'ca-pa-lang' all served in one piece yet tasteless. NOOOOOO GOOD.

Make a wish. He says,I want joey to be my girlfriend!

Then a creepy one,mysterious Bean .__.

We love this!

Can't see me right? Was too messy. Stay tuned for the next post if you miss me alright =P
Once again,happy birthday to the silly-est bean in class.
Stay handsome and pimples go away all the time okayyyy!
May our friendship last forever.

thanks parrot!